no… still can’t stop

No… Still can’t stop shaking your head no
Reflect for a minute, blink a few times, chew your gum, breathe it in… No
Memory please fail me now
One more shot
I’ll shoot it down, no.
Not me, not now, I won’t allow, no…
Can’t we make it all just go away, no.
Branded pain a moment past
Months of will not meant to last
Irony of rotten fate
Dwell on that final mistake
Ubiquitous chattering echoes my strife
Flatten the bug, the loss of a life
No eulogy, no flowered grave
Gone and dead, and no, not saved
Swallow the pills, it’s over, no.

© pinarosana 2006

cataclysm

in one tiny instant
a domino flick
the house of cards falls
a lightning strike
the bullet flies
a fire ignites
the animal bites
a rip-cord pull
the engine fails
a mirror breaks
the train derails

in one little moment
eternity forms a tunnel of silence
echoing laughter flattens to a hum then explodes and shatters as
shards of tomorrow break the bubble of now and pierce holes into yesterday
time changes shape and forms a new maze
all the signs fade to black

everything is built on nothing
pull the tablecloth from under the glasses of wine
flip a coin
hold your breath
or maybe just close your eyes and jump
whenever you think you know where you are going
life will throw you a detour
where flashes of history stream an infinite loop

a tower of tear-filled, makeup-smudged tissue
stands beside me on the floor
a shrine to my pain and my only companion
everything happens for a reason
believe not in regret
…but, where do I go from here?

close my eyes and find a place
where concrete turns to mist
walk the maze by different rules
where potential still lives in a wish
with secret doorways and hidden tunnels
the answers are painted in dreams
focus within and take it all here
where things are not as they seem

forever can happen in less than a second
where the flood flows drop by drop
undo that instant when the path washed away
hold hands with Hypnos and fly in the night
and paste time together to start a new day

© pinarosana 2006