2026 Grandma’s Marathon

Race recap: Grandma’s Marathon 2026-06-20 (TLDR)

Mission Accomplished!!! I fought so hard for it, but I nailed my goal by managing a hard push at the end, recovering after I had dropped down in pace for several miles in the heat. I fell early on, at mile 3.61, but thankfully caught myself with my hands and wasn’t trampled. My hands were a little hurt from it, but it’s just scrapes and a fingernail that lifted a bit and was bleeding some. I didn’t lose time from the fall. I quickly popped back up running and reclaimed my pace. I noticed in the shower after the race that my knees got a little bruised and one had a scrape, but it wasn’t too bad. I’m extremely thankful that it wasn’t. It took me a little while to get the fall out of my head when I was running, but my gratitude for how quickly I recovered my spot in the pack sustained me. Underneath my fingernail is the only thing really hurting right now. Index finger, right hand. Oh well.

As it warmed up it got significantly more difficult to stay on target. I was grabbing ice and running out of hydration quickly. Around mile 17, I didn’t think I’d hit my goal, but thankfully I didn’t give up. I did some quick math towards the end and realized it might still be possible, so with a throwdown in the final few miles which took everything I had, I hit my goal time, even beating it a little. I now have a 7:48 buffer for Boston and I feel good about that and am proud of the effort I put in. I’m very grateful!!! It was well worth the fight. 🙏🏻

Although it was sunny and hot, it was not as bad as last year, and it was also less humid. We had cloud cover sometimes and a nice breeze periodically. When I finished it was yellow flag conditions. It eventually moved to red flag as it continued to heat up.

I am so glad I brought my swimsuit. Getting in Lake Superior after the race felt amazing. The water is freezing cold and it was super helpful. I should have reapplied sunscreen before; I forgot to do that, and I got a little unwelcome sun on my shoulders from the reflective water.

I went to a meetup for the 50 sub 4 marathon club at a local brewery afterwards. It was nice seeing people and celebrating our race finishes.

My drive back to MSP was routed differently, via Highway 23 this time, which I really enjoyed. The landscape was lovely. I crossed a cool bridge, saw a few deer and several wild turkeys, and noticed a bunch of different types of birds. It was a nice wrap-up to a satisfying trip.

I didn’t bring the GoPro because I have a video of this race already, from last year, and I knew I needed to be all business in this race. Thankfully I didn’t have it, actually, considering the fall.

Oh! I forgot to mention something cool. After finishing, someone recognized me from my YouTube race videos. She thanked me profusely and said that my videos helped her a lot. We took a photo together and followed each other on Instagram. That’s the third time that has happened to me. It makes me feel very good and it’s really encouraging. I need to get caught up, as I’m quite a few races behind on editing. I will get to work on it soon.

I made another friend as well, at the dorm. We rode the bus to the race together and talked and saw each other also at the start line. She lives in Chicago and was there running with her team. We also connected on Instagram. I really love the people I meet through running. It makes my life feel so fulfilled. People are truly treasures. Connections are what life is all about. We are in this together.

I saw one of the Atlanta Track Club In-Training participants after the race. There were several of us there, but I didn’t manage to catch up with the others.

Finish time: 3:42:12 (8:29 pace) Marathon number 58, Grandma’s Marathon number 2.

I had flown into Minneapolis on Thursday evening before the race. I went to the Mall of America when I got there and was truly impressed with it. I will go back there and spend a little longer the next time. There are malls, and then there is the Mall of America. It lives up to the name and is seriously impressive. There is an entire amusement park inside, with plenty of legitimately cool adult rides. I didn’t have time and also didn’t want to spend $52 for a wristband, but honestly it would be worth it. I wish I did have time because I would’ve ridden them all. It looks so fun. There is even a water flume ride, inside the mall. It’s a beautiful mall and has multiple food courts, some really cool Asian stores that I wanted to go into, and four levels. I didn’t get to see it all in the couple hours I spent there. I want to go back when I have some shopping money and enough time to ride all the rides!!!

That’s a wrap! Good times.

Off by One – Marathon Count Rethought

I’ve decided to stop counting the 2020 Boston Virtual Marathon Experience in my total marathon count, since my marathon clubs don’t recognize virtual races. I can’t mentally keep up with holding a different tally for what is accepted versus what is not accepted, so I’m not counting it personally either anymore.

Admittedly, this is annoying, because it definitely counted for me at the time. It was really tough to do a virtual marathon at that stage of my marathon experience, especially in 2020. Regardless, I have decided this is the best thing for me to do. As such, all previous marathon counts will be off by one in all of my posts. Fine.

57 it is.

I will track virtual marathons separately.

April lessons

I’m home, as of last night around midnight. I’m pretty exhausted and a bit sore. The past 8 days was a whirlwind of adventure. I had such an amazing time. I spent many incredibly enjoyable and memorable moments with all kinds of various distant friends and also with people whom I’m close to and care about deeply. I had back-to-back great race performances, attended a high energy NBA playoff game, and spent days in Boston, Atlanta, Louisville, and at Mammoth Cave.

The trickiest part now is forcing logic over the natural emotional curve following such high energy. Emotions follow the physical energy cycle.

I don’t race this next weekend, but at least I do have a couple things planned, Thursday and Saturday.

The physical depletion is whatever; rebounding from that is, for me, textbook. The real test is keeping mind and spirit in the game after such a peak joy.

I know that the potential for joy in life is limitless, but wow. That was a truly wonderful 8 days. Moments were made that I can hang on to forever. Bonds were strengthened and new ones were formed. Experiences were had which can shape a lifetime and forge a path for more of the same, or of similar, to come. Truly, all of April has been magical.

Live your life. That is the lesson that April is teaching me. Do the things.

Be the person you are and see how Ptah will make the way for you. Be grateful. “Don’t fake it; faith it.”

2026 Kentucky Derby Festival Marathon

“Be a unicorn in a field of horses.” 🐴🦄🐴 I kept telling myself that today. Solid advice and a perfect mantra for going from Boston to the Kentucky Derby Festival Marathon, which runs through Churchill Downs.

I’m glad I did this. I wasn’t sure, 6 days after a hard push at Boston. I didn’t register until a couple weeks ago. I have a shirt that says “You’ll get lucky in Kentucky” and I feel like I really did today. Blessings from the Universe carried me. 🙏🏻

When I was almost back to the hotel I noticed I had placed 2nd in my age group, so I walked back, but then found out that they mail the awards. I got to see Ietta Parrott after her finish, which made me happy. 🖤

All I wanted was a sub-4 today. Mission accomplished. I also squeaked in a tiny BQ, which I can’t use (don’t need to use, because I have one with a better buffer) but that also pleased me. We were lucky that the Sun didn’t come out until the end, although it was still warmer than ideal for me, and the first hour was pretty humid. Regardless, I was immeasurably grateful for the cloud cover.

At the expo, Wenzel’s Farm had a booth and they were offering a great deal where your could buy six meat sticks and get a free swag item. I chose the singlet and I thought the shirt was so cute that I decided to wear it to the race. At the start line someone complimented me on it and I turned around and he was wearing the same singlet, so we got a picture together and I made a new friend. As it turns out, he is the president of the company. Very cool.

The Wenzel’s Farm meat sticks are so delicious, btw. They were also giving them away at the finish. I’ve already eaten several of them and I will definitely be ordering more. It’s a great high protein snack, which is something I’m always looking for. Check it out. https://wenzelsfarm.com/

There is bourbon everywhere here. I would’ve had a field day if it were over 15 years ago, but there’s no way I could’ve done back then what I am doing now, with running all these marathons and recovering fast and so forth. (Oh wow, I forgot to post about that – yesterday was 15 years clean and sober. 🥳) They were even giving away samples of bourbon at the expo and offering special commemorative bottles of bourbon for sale. I used to love bourbon. I still love the taste, and I’m definitely not at a risk of falling back into that hole at all (as alcohol, although definitely in the mix, wasn’t really my drug of choice), but I prioritize my health over absolutely everything now and I know the downstream damage that even a tiny bit of alcohol can do to me. So, I did not even taste it, but I kind of wanted to just have a sip. I figured there wasn’t much point to it. I need all hands on deck for recovery at all times, the way I have chosen to live my life.

So, that’s my race recap.
Full marathon number 57. ✅
U.S. State number 38 ✅
Sub-4 U.S. State number 18 ✅
Overall Sub-4 number 21 ✅

I made an Instagram reel with the photos, which I will turn into a YouTube short and embed here soon. Instagram won’t let me embed the reel, so here is a link. Be sure to give me a follow on Instagram and I will follow back.

https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhxvs3jOxv

I also brought the GoPro today, so I will edit that footage when I get the chance and embed that here as well. I will also add one photo to this post later. 🤘🏻

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2026 Boston Marathon

I didn’t accomplish what I had set out to do in the 2026 Boston Marathon, but I got very, very close. Honestly, I didn’t really think I would accomplish it, and I’m a little surprised I got as close as I did. I didn’t watch and calculate enough, or I might’ve actually done it. When I finally started doing math, I couldn’t believe how close I was. By then I was in the end game and had already settled for my B-goal emotionally.

I got immediately behind on the splits I needed for my A-goal in the first two miles because I couldn’t make proper forward progress through the crowd, which was infuriating. That messed with my head the entire race to be behind the curve by a solid minute as early as mile 3, when I knew for sure I didn’t have to be. I had all systems go, but I couldn’t pierce the wall of people. I was fairly certain that I would not be able to make that minute up.

Anyway, I achieved my third best marathon time and my non-downhill personal record by two and a half minutes (yes, I realize Boston is a NET downhill race, but it isn’t the same as an actual downhill at all.) The record I beat today was my original BQ of a 3:46:55 at the Marine Corps Marathon in 2018.

So, that is ok with me to break a record, when I’m 8 years older, which I had set in my fastest running year. It definitely was not easy. It hurt for most of the race. Some days you have easy races. This wasn’t one of them. I had a few easy miles around mile 7 and a scattering of moments otherwise, but the consensus of my race yesterday was a high level of pain. The shoutout from my ATC friends was a huge emotional push which came in the brief period of the race when I actually felt ok. I tried to hold on to that emotionally for as long as I could.

The weather was beautiful. Can’t complain at all about it. We were truly blessed.

It’s hard to be too upset with myself about just barely missing my goal, even though I want to be, given the fight I fought yesterday with my own mind and body and given the end result. Alas, I am me and I will never pass up an opportunity to be hard on myself for not doing better. This behavior is part of what makes me who I am and I won’t apologize for it, not to myself or anyone else. I learned it early in life. Yes, I did well, but that just tells me that I can do better.

So I shall persist, forever, chasing unicorns and trying to be the strongest me of which I am capable. I thank my Mom for making me this way. She was a tough coach in life, with very little positive feedback which didn’t carry an edge to it. I love her for that. She made me who I am in so many ways. Thanks, Mom. This one is for you. 🦄

I finished with a time of 3:44:26, an 8:34 official pace (an 8:30 pace by my Garmin distance of 26.4, from not hitting the tangents perfectly.)

I did a lot of walking after the race, made sure to get some really good protein by having an amazing meal, and barely got 3 hours of sleep because I was so jacked up from the extra caffeine I had. I spent way more money than I planned to on this trip, but it was magical and worth it.

I’m going to have to buy the photo package. I think I got my Citgo photo this year. I hope so!

I’m also gonna have to pull off some serious recovery magic now, somehow, and fast. I got this. 🤘🏻

I will add a photo to this post later. I didn’t bring the GoPro, but I did make an Instagram reel from the photos. I’m working on turning it into a YouTube short, which I will embed here. In the meantime, here is the reel on Instagram. I have to use a link because WordPress won’t embed it. Be sure to give me a follow. Peace.

https://www.instagram.com/reels/DXiPabADBV1/

New Marathon Personal Record 3:34:10

I ran my 55th full marathon on March 28, 2026 at REVEL Mt. Charleston in Las Vegas, Nevada. It was not a new state for me, nor was it a new sub-4 state, nor was it a new marathon for me. I achieved a new full marathon personal record of 3:34:10. I was trying for just a little bit better, but the weather had other plans.

It was way too hot and sunny and you’re literally running into the sun for the whole race pretty much, because you’re going East. There is zero shade anywhere except for about 30 seconds during mile 12. I was warm by mile 2 and I knew it was going to get way worse.

After the circle at mile 5 I got a side stitch that didn’t go away for three miles. That was miserable and I lost a lot of time from it, during what could have been the fastest miles. By mile 15 I was badly overheated.

I almost gave up at mile 20, because I was behind schedule for what I was hoping to do. I did give up, a little, but I renegotiated with myself and decided to hang on to what I could, figuring I might get 30 seconds on my previous buffer for Boston. I had to stop a lot for water and still kept running out. Glad I hung on. I have a 5:50 buffer now for my 2027 BQ, which is 73 seconds more than I had before today. I’m still not sure it is enough, but it’s a better chance than I had before.

I literally almost cancelled this one after I saw the forecast. Even though it was a very tough day, I’m glad I didn’t cancel. New PR and a bit more hope unlocked! 🙏🏻

I brought my GoPro, but I was struggling too hard to get very good video footage, and I knew it, so I didn’t bother that much. I got a few clips and made a YouTube short of the stills I captured from them, combined with some photos I took on my phone before and after the race. Here it is:

I can’t make this stop

I don’t know what to do. This is the worst I’ve been in a long time. I’m shaking back and forth and crying uncontrollably, all day now for hours and hours just breaking down every 30 minutes. It’s a miracle I haven’t hurt myself. I don’t think I’m going to, because I don’t do that anymore, but the thoughts are there and I can’t stop them. I don’t understand this. I don’t understand why I am so stuck. Everything feels like it is slipping away. I just want to slip away, too. I wonder if tomorrow I will feel better. I wish I could just get to tomorrow to find out. What if I am not better? Then what? What is going on and why can’t I make it stop?

No closure necessary, thanks.

Someone in a group I’m in just posted this and it is SO ON POINT that I wanted to share it.

“Relying heavily on receiving closure to ‘move on’ is steeped in co-dependency. You’re giving the person who hurt you the power to heal you, too.”

That statement above is IT. That is exactly it. No closure necessary, thanks. I got this.

I want to site Juliette Lopez as the author of this brilliant statement, so here is a link to the post. You may have to be logged into Facebook to see it, but it is a public post in a public group, as of now at least.

Another Silent Solstice – PRP mixtape 15 – December 2025

I’m done with this. I forgot to publish it. It’s really 2026-02-24 right now, but I’m putting this in the timeline for the date of the last edit, which was 2026-01-08. I don’t feel like reviewing it to determine if it is still relevant. This chapter is over. I’ve really almost finished the next playlist, except that it needs revision, so I needed to get this one out. If only letting the pain go were so easy.

A reminder that Spotify introduced a new feature in 2023 that allows listeners to exclude a playlist from their taste profile. It’s a great option for when you are listening to someone else’s stuff from their profile, or you have guests visiting, and you aren’t sure you want Spotify crafting playlists for you based upon their taste. If you want to explore my playlists and not have it affect your listening profile and song suggestions on Spotify, here’s how to use the handy “exclude from my taste profile” feature.

Track # Artist Song Track # – Artist – Song
1 – Lamb of God – Memento Mori
2 – Sixx: A.M. – We Will Not Go Quietly
3 – Nouveau Arcade – Guns & Candy
4 – Frayle – Walking Wounded
5 – Modesty Beast – Tough Guy
6 – Antimatter – Breaking The Machine (Remix)
7 – Lord Of The Lost, Within Temptation – Light Can Only Shine In The Darkness
8 – Electric Youth – Innocence
9 – KARAVIRS – Ribbon in my hair
10 – The Pretty Reckless – For I Am Death
11 – Vision Video – Dead Gods
12 – Public Image Ltd. – The Order of Death
13 – Now Ex – We Had It All
14 – Muse – Unravelling – Ghost Town Version
15 – Slamboree, The Rev. Captain Liability Eden – My Game My Rules
16 – Manifested Dreams – Unleashed
17 – Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds – Into My Arms
18 – Transportna – Холодні стіни
19 – Lllyric? – A Girl Is A Gun
20 – Eminem, Jelly Roll – Somebody Save Me
21 – KamNox – Confessions Interlude
22 – Beyond Disdain, Selene Calder – Everything We Gave
23 – Seeming – Nova

Here are the other mixtapes: https://pinarosana.wordpress.com/category/mixtape/

Here is my profile on Spotify.

I’m pretty much in an emotional hole right now. Sometimes things are better; if memory serves. This too shall pass, or so they say. I’m beginning to doubt it.